couldn't have said it better

"if i said that i felt nothing
hiding back behind my wall
said i was better by myself-
turned away and wish you well
said i was wrong about it all


so i'm not asking for forgiveness
no thats someone elses song
the thing that haunts you like a ghost 
the thing that hurts the most
is knowing that we're wrong"


gordie s

wrong

button up

a million little love me nots

morning theft

something you didn't know

love plays the biggest role in my life right now. i know i'm 18 and its been versed to me a million times that i can't understand or be "in love". this in itself is understandable- i haven't had enough time to experience and love deeply and have my heart broken or mended. but it's not true that i can't be in love or feel it- its just on a different level, and its not an old, familiar comfortable feeling. in a sense, i think that maybe love at 18 is the best feeling- its awakening and refreshing and incredible. this being said, i am not actually in love but my heart is so open these days it might just walk on in any time.

the build up

today has been kind of an emotional day already and its only 8:30 in the morning. 

my stomach is swooping and my heart is drumming a steady beat like i've been walking for miles

and my brain is just too exhausted to function and tell me "calm down"

i'm worried about you, and i'm worried about me and i'm really worried about us

but in the midst of it all, and despite it all, i'm also really happy.

my heart has never been so full and i haven't felt these emotions in a while

and i'm feeling like it might be a good day for a photoshoot.

so if something worthwhile comes out of todays work- i'll post.

see what you can find in them that words just can't explain.