night sky.

i'm sitting here

staring out at the most breathtaking view
the silhouetted trees against a multi-colored sky
with soft clouds and a bonfire
the laughter of people drifting up from the far end of the field
the sky stretching forever
until finally my eyes land on my favorite place in the world
sitting directly in the middle of it all
and all winter i long to be here.. to know that i exist
in such close quarters
and just the fact that it is only a ten minute drive
puts me at inexplicable peace.
but so many things have changed.
not just for me, but for this place
and two years ago this would have been a problem
but today i welcome change.
slowly, carefully,
transitions have become easier and i'm sure
if they were sudden it would be
harder but for now these little things are saddening
but okay.
not great, but okay.
because no one can change memories.
no one can alter these amazing moments..
they are written and cannot be erased
so i guess while the view is peaceful
and i would love to freeze time
the real peace in all of this
is that the most amazing chapters.. the best parts
the things i love the most
are written and cannot be changed.
it makes other changes easier
and i guess it makes the glass half full.
i'm grateful- no matter what happens
all these great times in my life
are captured in some sort of frame
and i can always look back- even just for a
few seconds.
to remind myself that life goes on
people leave and things will always
move.. we have to keep moving.
we have to keep up.
you are always allowed to miss
and be missed.

just keep going.
<3